El is here... 7 years and 10 days...
How could I survive?

Careless

I'm careless,
Careless with my emotions,
Careless with my life...

I risk my heart
And gamble on my love....

And in the end,
I never find an ace to hold...
And Ace to keep...

All I have is a dime to offer...

Semi Poems ----- Maybe

I write on my 360 blog mostly... the thoughts.. the vanishing moments...

What Kind of a Student Am I?

I cannot sit motionless.
I get bored easily and I stop listening.
In the class I have my earphones on and I am listening to music while writing semi-poems in English mostly.
I participate in lessons and drop answers while drawing on a pad.
I barely can wait till the break.
I like to 'MISS' classes occasionally and go somewhere and have fun instead.
(Nope I do not use the word 'ditch'... I don't 'ditch' the class... I simply use my right not to go!)
If the lesson is boring I do not hesitate to show it to my professor.
I hate having to do homework.
...
I can go on forever... but it's just enough for now. Just tell me why am I thinking about Ph.D?

Here I am!

After so long I could get into this!
WOW!
I missed writting here!

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My Worst Fears

What Are You Afraid Of?

My Result: not belonging

Have you ever noticed that you're more concerned about whether others will love and care for you than many people around you are? Or do you sometimes worry more than you should about being unneeded, unimportant, or even ostracized by those around you? If so, you're not alone. There are many people who share your fear of not belonging.

Love and Moi

The Love Test

My Result: Prized Partner

You appreciate the finer things in life and tend to seek out others who share your refined tastes. High fashion, gourmet meals, luxurious getaways — these are the kinds of things that you enjoy. If you can experience them with a worldly, stylish mate, all the better. You are drawn to people who know how to take care of themselves and are hooked in socially. Whether you're out at a club or a restaurant opening, it's important to you to be part of the scene.

What are you?
http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=loveogt&c=50652

Harry Potter and Moi

Which Harry Potter Character Are You?

My Result: Ginny Weasley

You rarely need Polyjuice potion because you're usually happy just being you! While you might not make the biggest splash or cause drama, you slowly and steadily win over lots of people who think you're pretty darn wonderful. While you can be a little shy and self-conscious at times (especially around a crush), you're probably considered to be a BFF by more than just one person.


Luckily, your talents aren't just the magic kind. You're also kind and smart and just great to be around. Looks like you'll have a very charmed life indeed!

What are you?
http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=harrycharacterogt&c=50652

April's Fool

Today, 13th of Farvardin (first month of Iranian Calender), is 'SizdeBeDar' (13 to be gone) A day Iranian celebrate the end of Norooz Holiday & get back to work the day after. In this day, Iranian reconnect with nature. They go out on picnics & have some special dishes made & do some dancing, eat nuts & they wish for the best by knotting 'Sabze' (Young growing wheat stems in green).

Another custom is to tell a lie the way that no one notice... You call it April Joke. We call it: Doroogh e Sizdah. (13's lie).

So I made a little game today. I started calling my gang, pretending that I can not hear their voice on the cell, or the voice was too low: they shouted, screamed, & when they were just trying to make me hear them I told them to call me back & cut the conversation. When they called, I told them : April Fool!

It was fun but I believe I must not show up for the upcoming birthday of my friend! Too many furious guys & no help would be way too dangerous!

The City I Love

It's spring here... walking with the green steps of the leaves. There are times that I truely understand why I love this town...:

The hectic rush before the New Year's onset, the smell of Daffodils, the pure blue sky, the wind, the stars at night so close you can reach out & touch... I Love Tehran!

NoRooz, as we call our new year, is just around a corner & once in a while it slides it's head, a takes a glance at us... Everything is in motion... people, shopping, laughing, running, strolling, cleaning... birds flying, winds blowing.... You can not sit aside & not be in the waves... they overcome your wish to stand still & move you forward...

Are You a Left-hand?

One of our little joys of the life, aka pass time, is getting up dressed & have a night out in a fancy restaurant: imagine 5 girls, dressed up & made up, shouting & making a mess in a 5 star hotel. Most of the time the butlers have wild guesses that we are bunch of drunks... which we absolutely are... we get high on each other presence.

Anyhow what I wanted to say is not about that. It is more about an incident that happened in one of these posh hang outs of ours.

You are, of course, very well aware that when the table is set the glass is either set up the plate to the right or beside the plate to the right. also, I'm sure you are perfectly acquainted with the fact that the cutlery should be held by the right hand. Right?

I am not unfortunately a total lefties... but I use both hands to do things: I sew with my left hand, & I write with my right. I take the glass & the knife by my left!

Now you have all the elements to my story: A posh restaurant, a semi-lefties, & a butler of high elegance!

Our table was set when we arrived... & I was accompanied by a nice elderly gentleman who happened to be my guest. We sat & the first thing I did was as always change the place of the glass. The butler came a while later & changed the position of my glass thinking that I have done it ignorantly. & as I have had orderd Steak he put the knife down on the right side. I, once agian, changed the position of the glass, had it filled & subtly while speaking in muttered hush voice changed the position of my knife. This time the old butler got totally out of hand. He leaned over & thinking that I probably did not know the rules, whispered that I should leave the glass at its place on the right. "I'm a left-hand." I explained. He looked at me strange & said: "so? you must keep the glass on the right...!"

- no I use my left hand.

He just nodded his head like I was some wierdo & left. The next time he came by I was cutting my food with my left hand. I swear he choked.

It was nice that it seemed that he have not met someone like me. Laters that eve, my company told me that he knew a lot of left-hands who used the right hand styles in eating.

Now I wonder, do you use your left hand while on table for food?

Valentine… such a world for a hermit like me… well, I feel totally out of place right now… Totally out of picture. It's like I had been left out of a great secret… a wisdom come to those who practice… you know.
Last night I went to buy a gift… I'm of those people who never left the presents for last minute since I hate buying things in a rush & when it's so crowded you can not see what you are buying; anyhow, due to financial crisis, this particular gift was left to be bought by toady… yeah, yeah, back to the main story: I went to haunt for the gift & everywhere I stepped foot on there were young girls & boys buying, laughing, cheering for a day that is not ours. It was sad… how they related to it & how I did not….
In the wrapping shop, (there is one particular shop I frequent in Mirza-Shirazi Ave. who has excellent wrapping material & a nice, tasteful lady… the name? oh, Golden Card "Karte-Talaeeii") there were too many, too many young faces just examining the boxes & wraps & all… I felt sort of out of place… like an ugly-ducky-duck in a spring of beautiful swans. I shyly asked the shopping girl for wrapping assistance & she asked is this your first? I had to stop myself from laughing… I am yet to have a real valentine.
It is not hard to see that I am beyond the age to care for romance: romance is more of a fiction to me than something tangible & real. It is only in fairy tales that lovers live happily ever after, that lovers are prefect matches. It would be great lie to believe that love… the kind of love I'm dreaming of would ever find its way out of my dreams into reality.

It's Freezing... but We got used to it!

I'm still shocked that we survived... I mean honestly for more than a week the country went into a hibernation... people barely got out of the house & the fuel problem was threatening a lot of lives.

We are still in a mess regarding the gas providence. Some areas of the country have no heating system except for wood while the temperature is around -30 C.

Last week, the governmental organizations, Schools, Universities & a lot of factories had been made "closed" to save fuel for other parts of the country. In my company the heating system is off during non-work hours & it is barely on (2 hours on top) during work hours. It means that right now I am working in the office & the temperature is: 12 C. We can not serve hot plate food & well, it's almost the same in every other governmental companies. (Though I must say that the temperature in managerial office is 22 which is not surprising at all).

Anyhow, We are surviving.... rather than everything else. I sleep with a warm bag in my bed every night since My dad, a very caring & philanthropic person, had turned the house heating system to lower temperature, 19 C to help saving the gas for those in need. (He made us wear a lot of clothes & said that he would be ashamed if we could not tolerate coldness while people are on the verge of losing lives).

We survived!

Freezinggggggggg

I just wrote a post which got vanished! Anyhow, We're freezing... Gonna write more soon.

ARoS Aarhus Kunstmuseum to host Shirin Neshat ~ 'Women Without Men'

If you happened to be in Denmark, It would worth a visit.

Christmas Here!

Well, It's been so long that I have not written anything here... I wish I did but I was not in the mood... It's Christmas... It's gonna be my birthday soon & I'm just not feeling it!
What I feel is cold & lonesome... I feel like everyone is claimimg my time on these very special days...
Anyhow! That's just me being nasty & b!chy about my upcoming birthday... We have a lot of guests this weekend & then I will be out everynight for at least the fortnight to come! Way to be left alone!

Day-to-Day Survival

It has been a long time since I have written anything here... I guess it's more or less because I write in my other blogs... mainly short texts, but still, I feel bad for neglecting my first & foremost blog!

My daily life has turned into a very boring rutine: I wake up at 6:30, do the morning rituals of shower, make-up, breakfast & I'm present at work or in school by 8! Do the same old, same old & have lunch at 12! Then I swich to the other: if I had been at work in the morning, I go to school, if I had been in school, I go back to work... I would stay till 6:30 in the evening... same old, same old... then depending on my schdual I do something different & then I get home by 9 & I talk on phone till 10! & I study a bit & then sleep!

Each Sunday, I go to my conversation class, once a week I go to the movies usually on Saturdays, I go on jogging sessions 3 times a week & most weekends (Thursdays & Fridays) we have guests....

From outside: it looks like a busy, tight, exciting plan.... from my point of view: day-to-day survival...

I plan on taking Italian classes soon... & start going to gym, if I find a good one. That might help to get me unloaded... If only I could wake up sooner then I might have actaully made it to the exercise session in the park near us!

The Autumn

I always loved the autumn… it kind of gives me the feeling of change; you know… every thing speed up a bit. Life gets higher, faster & more tangible. It seems that out in the street you can touch life, you know; it's there with the kids throwing their bags over their shoulders, moms putting snacks in it, dads crossing them over the street….

Anyways, today is the first day of autumn here… & I kinda like walking in the street & get high on the buzz intoxicating me from every corner. It's like suddenly the city has woken up, like the dragging of summer is at last finished.

My Birthday reading:

Well, Seems I'm getting into these funny things for now:
:)

The moon's phase on the day you wereborn was waning crescent.
Your birth tree is:

Apple Tree, the Love
Of slight build, lots of charm, appeal and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, scientific talents, lives for today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.

Your birthstone is Blue Zircon
The Mystical properties of Blue Zircon
Zircon helps one be more at peace with oneself. Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Blue Topaz, Ruby, Lapis Lazuli

Your lucky day is Saturday.
Your lucky number is 8.
Your ruling planet(s) is Saturn & Uranus.
Your lucky dates are 8th, 17th, 26th.
Your opposition sign is Cancer.
Your opposition number(s) is 2 & 7.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Goose; your plant is Bramble.
You were born in the Egyptian month of Famenoth, the third month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).
Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 24 Tevet 5741.Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 25 Tevet 5741.
The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.7.10.0 which is12 baktun 18 katun 7 tun 10 uinal 0 kin
The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Wednsday, 23 Safar 1401 (1401-2-23).

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2444604.5.
The golden number for 1980 is 5.
The epact number for 1980 is 13.The year 1980 was a leap year.

You were born on a Wednesday under the astrological sign Capricorn.
Your Life path number is 7.
Life Path Compatibility:You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 4 & 22.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 9.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 3, 6, 8 & 11.