Been Tagged By Magical Droplets

1. Last movie you saw in a theater?


Music & Lyrics (Ok I know... It was the 100th time! But What Can I Do? It's Hugh Grant dude!)

2. What book are you reading?
My Shame... I'm not reading much recently! Ok... I read some short stories by J.D. Salinger & "Louise Amour" by Boben.

3. Favorite board game?
Chess... hmm... I kinda feel like playing it right now!

4.Favorite magazine?
Used to be NewsWeek... no Finantial times (hey does that even count?)

5. Favorite smell?
The smell of snow... what? I love snow!

6. Favorite food? Ghorme Sabzi!

7. Favorite sound?
The rain hitting the window while I listen to light music & sip my tea...

8. Worst feeling in the world?
You know when you think you're doing someone's a favor & it turns out that you have been hurting them all along?

9. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?
How about another 5 minutes? I can't let my pillow be without me... that's cruel to him!

10. Favorite fast food place?
Raz Pizza in Tehran.

11. Future child’s name?
Boy's Name: Nastihan, Givmart, Girl: Proshat (hey.. u know that it's a nick name right?), Parnian

12. Finish this statement. If I had a lot of money:....
I dont think that would change a lot about me...

13. Do you drive fast?
Fast? Who? Me? NOOOO! You dont call 150 km/h fast, do you?

14. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
Hmm... a dog named 'Stupid', a Bear called 'Blue Berry', A Cat called 'Piiiiishiiiii'

15. Storms cool or scary?
Cool...

16. What was your first car?
206... but well I dont drive much.

17. Favorite drink?
Coca Light. Orange Juice

18. Finish this statement, “If I had the time I would…”:
I would have had more fun! (not that I dont have fun at all... poor me! I'm only out 5 nights a week... that's not too much is it?)

19. Do you eat the stems on broccoli?
Ok... ok... let's see... I'm the health food expert... BUT that does not mean I enjoy eating the health food!

20. If you could dye your hair any color, what would be your choice?
I rather have shades... like now... my hair has this unusual charecter about it that the color changes with the angel of sunlight. I have my hair highlighted a shade lighter but it's totally natural color.

21. Name all the different cities/ towns you have lived in?
TEHRAN... Damn I love the city too well, to even start living soemwhere else.

22. Half empty or half full?
Depends on the mood!

23. Favorite sports to watch?
FOOTBALL

25. Morning person, or night owl?
Morning?!!!! My brain does not function before noon!

26. Over easy, or sunny side-up?
Do I have to answer that?

27. Favorite place to relax?
MY BED! Hmmm... ok my old bedroom! I loved the view.

28. Favorite pie?
ApplePie!

Now... I tag Sunnaz, Lynne & Geominer to play!

I Found MY Friend!

I just don't believe it!

here she is... a friend from my elementary school!

YUUUUHOOOOOOOO!

Hey I Thought I was BLUE

Your Inner Color is Yellow

Your Personality: Life's too short not to have fun. Your bright energy brings joy and laughter to those around you. You in Love: A total flirt, you need a lot of freedom to play. But you'll be loyal to that one person who makes you feel safe. Your Career: You love variety in a job, and you probably won't stick with one career. You would make a great professor, writer, or actor.

What's Your Inner Color?

More on Se6ual Relationships

Last Thursday when my friend, Sunnaz, & I were riding home a debate started on what we really act toward se6ual relationships. We started talking about an engaged friend of ours & whether we think 'she' is still a vir8in or not, or even she had come close to having a se6ual affair with her 'fiancé'. Not that we are nosy, well, I admit I am a bit, however, the question was more of a general one… whether a modern girl in Iran understands the significance of trying even a subtle physical relationship before taking a huge step towards an enormous commitment? Then on Friday, I went for a visit to another friend's. & she was so troubled & so unsure of herself, just trying to get hitched & satisfy her natural needs… & my heart broke at the sight before me… a very fair & intelligent young lady swimming in the abyss of depression just because she was denied of her rights… more by herself & her self-imposed limits than anything else. & I suddenly shivered 'cuz I could see myself heading toward where she is now in 5 years!

How do we, as somewhat intellectual women, really feel & think about se6ual affairs? Do we really think it is necessary to have physical intimacy in a relationship? What do we need & how important it is to please them?

So let's take the debate to a more personal level. Both, my friend & I had been brought up in a rather open-minded family where se6uality & male-female relations had never been an issue. We were taught that we are a person before being a girl, that we have the same right as the boys. Se6 was never the issue of discussion though. Most of my own se6ual education comes from the books that were provided for us… lying around so we could pick them up & read. That's were most of my other basic knowledge got formed, but well, that's another story.

We like to think ourselves as a modern frameless spirits, yet even in our limitlessness, I don't consider myself as courageous to perform "taboo" tasks! I mean yeah, I for sure have broken some rules but then again, they never went beyond a boundary. This has been the same for the issue of physical intimacy.

I'm a vir8in & I'm happy to keep it that way… Well, at least till I find the one person committed in a relationship. Once in my life I had a boyfriend. He was not mature enough to even be the start of a se6ual relationship by any means; sure there had been kisses & hugs but that never led to anywhere but me hating him even more. It's not that I don't like physical attention, visa versa, I'm the touchy-feely one; but I felt dirty about it! I felt used because I did not love him… & I felt it was not right…. So there I was trying to clear my morals for myself with no success.

While talking to Sunnaz though, I had an intuition: I was going to try a physical relationship. I'm not ready to lose vir8inty yet, but hell, what's wrong with a little fun?

It was funny; tow grown-ups talking about se6 like it's some kind of taboo with a hushed voice & nervous laughter. I started to grow more confident as we spoke though. I thought to myself if I can theorize about right of free-se6, then for sure I could practice it. We could practice it. She might get out of this God-forsaken town & I want her to try intimacy with a guy, try having a physical relation with someone. She deserves to set free & have fun & have experiences she could not have here. I encourage her to go wild & enjoy her life! She said something that I keep thinking about: "I don't want to get married, just because I want to get laid!" & we're both not ready for any commitment…. Why should we think that marriage is the only way of….

Damn… I know I'm all talks & when it comes to practice, I rather sit aside & encourage others on! That's why I said I'm a hypocrite!

Morals in a se6ual Relationship

Se6ual relationship has been the issue on my mind for quite a long time now. I have come to the conclusion that I act rather hypocritical toward the issue, though.

I mean I believe that being in love & being committed is enough to make 'love-making' ethical. Therefore, there should be no taboos for 2 people in love (regardless of the se*, age & all that Junk) to show their commitment toward each other by uniting their bodies, the way their souls should be united. Love is the only legal reason in my opinion to be intimate with someone; whether they are married or not is out of question of course… that's nobody's business!

On the other hand, any se6ual relationship is naughty way of having fun… let morals rest a bit & go wild! Let your body take control & take a well earned prize! What's wrong with 2 friends who trust each other to have a more physical 'friendship' while they are not committed to any other souls out there? What's wrong with having fun in the first place? Would se* bring commitment all by itself? Should these 2 be bound in a stricter frame just because they had fun?

Then I remember; Pleasure is a sin! & both frames do not work here in the constricted social ethics of this God forsaken country! Se* is referred to as 'marital relationship' which sums it all: no se8ual relationships out of marriage bounds! What about Homos, free souls & commitment-phoebes? What about the ones who have not found their soul mates yet & they are willing to wait to commit?

Then the next issue pops in my mind… what about the virtue of vir8inity? Is virginity a virtue at all? Should a body be only for one person forever for always & more?

I have no answers yet…. I see my friends who are committed in a relationship & are afraid of share some lovin' & I see other friends who have wild nights secretly & then boast about their 'virginity'… I also see friends of mine who have not been ready for any kind of commitment & now they are trapped in a bad marriage just because…. All of them are close & dear to my heart but none seems to have a healthy se* life….

Proshat

A Math Student Love Letter:

I laughed so hard, it hurt!

Thanks to my LostLord Here is the text:

My Dear Love,

Yesterday, I was passing by your rectangular
house in trigonometric lane. There I saw you with your cute circular face, conical nose and spherical eyes, standing in your triangular garden.Before seeing you, my heart was a null set, but when a vector of magnitude (likeness) from your eyes at a deviation of theta radians made a tangent to my heart, it differentiated.

My love for you is a quadratic equation with real roots, which only you can solve by making good binary relation with me. The cosine of my love for you extends to infinity. I promise that I should not resolve you
into partial functions but if I do so, you can integrate me by applying the limits from zero to infinity.
You are as essential to me as an element to a set. The geometry of my life revolves around your acute personality. My love, if you do not meet me at parabola restaurant on date 10 at sunset, when the sun is making an angle of 160 degrees, my heart would be like a solved polynomial of degree 10. With love from your higher order derivatives of maxima and minima, of an unknown function.

Yours ever loving,x*y*z

Iran - US

Tomorrow is the day...
They are going to negotiate after all these long years...
I'm frightened...
What will that be... for my country &for my people?

Dresses...

A heartless b!tch… that's what I'm called sometimes. I don't get hurt… I'm used to being called names & being treated like a freak & well, honestly, most of the time I take it as a complement… just a projection of their fear of my abilities.

I know that's the price I pay for going my way… for standing out & daring to be me, regardless of the surroundings. For instance, I wear whatever I feel comfortable in… & mostly my clothes have the same base… not a very short manto, a loose scarf which a lot of hairs uncovered, a jean or a comfortable pair of dress pants & snickers or sandals… rarely high heels. Hmm, that's a very conservative look actually in my own opinion but well, some people just find it, let's say, unorthodox!!!!

As you might have learned, I work in a governmental company… big one, mind you! & I have been criticized over what I wear!!! Nope, they did not tell me face to face or there is no letter or anything but recently I hear more female collogues coming to me with the information that some men are really bothered by the way I dress & think that it's inappropriate for the work!!!!

Then there are my friends who sometimes ask me if I can't be more 'fashionable'?!!! That's weird! Being called a lousy fashion suicide & a B!tch the same time!

More Cave Photos:

I love Caves... I wish I had some of Alisadr's photos here too. But well, I failed to have the in a secure place & I lost all of them!!! Stupid Me!

You know what I love most about Water-Caves... The cool breeze & the gentle silence of the water beneth your feet.... It's so perfect & mysterious...

Sahoolan Cave In NorthWest Of Iran

the enterance

Photo Credits:

• Proshat

• khanchooban

• Rafael

A trip To Zanjan

Ok... we drived the 400 Km ride only to have lunch in the city & come back! So what? It was fun!

The Scenes where splendidly eye-catching & The weather was just nice!

That's my sis taking pictures of my best friend!

Photos by: Proshat

I'm afriad it's not only women!

Dear Lynne,
I'm afraid it's not only women who are under being 'cracked down' here! There are young boys being accused too. They shall not dress like women as it's called here! They shall not wear ties, short sleeves or do their hair in messy bushes (Well, the only good point in my opinion personally... I would freak whenver I would see a boy who have treated his hair like a lady in a most fashionable party!)
It's been really strange here... & I dont think this pressure would solve anything... It only spreads hatered!

Have You heard of What's going on?

No…? Well, Police is taking care of 'Street women'! & the definition of a one is: the one who is not dressed appropriately!

What? I can't hear you... What doers appropriate means? Oh, I have not figured out yet!

A little hair… a little flesh… make-up… new hairdos… I don't know.

The only thing I know is, that every time I pass a police station, I feel my heart beating in my throat for the fear of someone grabbing me & scolding me…. Hmm? I do not wear extra-ordinary clothes… nor do I act abnormally (well, considering what is NORMAL… this sentence can turn untrue!), in fact, I am more of the next person who walks in the street… plain Jane that is. However, that's no help! Since, I have seen the freaks get away & the plain Janes get all the scolds! So I fear, & that fear is killing me…. I feel I have no choice to be myself! & maybe if I had a choice, I did not change the way I was, but now, I feel I might want to get a bit rebellious & wear the freaky cloths!

 

 

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Then Go check out this site:
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My Office

Well, not always this messy but whatever!

Sunnaz Has Written a Piece On 'Death'

Check her piece & tell me how you feel.
She has a way with words...

On Top of The World

This Picture has been taken from the top of the buliding I work in.

And this is the top floor of the same bulding! Nice little garden!

Spring Is Here

The park near my place

They're Free Now... But for how much longer?

I Got My Internet Back!

Thanks God!


I was losing my mind! It's good to be back!

The Answer To My Own Magical Droplet!

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life. You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships. The purpose of your life: showing love to other people Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

What Color Is Your Aura?

Nuclear News...

Dear All,

It's going to be announced tonight…. I can't say what, because I have to consider confidentiality. Yet, it's not going to be good. I just hope all this propaganda would not lead us to war.

I can't conceal my fears. I can't say that I predict anything positive in it… true… I love my country. God knows I love the land I was born in; I would be proud of any real improvement, however, I don't feel that there is a real improvement in the news….

I hate to say it, but I have to say it… We WILL probably end up like Iraq… devastated & tortured under rule of strangers. I'm afraid.

The days of me...

Dear All,

It's been a very busy day here at work. First, I had a meeting which did not go quite well & then a retired colleague came here who, unfortunately is really talkative & nosy. She, rather enthusiastically, wanted to know when will I get married, what have I bought for myself in the past month, did I change my cell-phone, what kind of new things are here, who is the new guy beside my desk, do I intend to marry an associate of mine who happen to be very handsome & comes from a good background & is very likely to move up the ladder quickly, why does he not propose to me, why he is not interested me, why he has gotten engaged without her permission!!!!!

Then we had some problems with the contractor, same old, same old!

So here I sit, at the end of a hard day, counting the minutes to be able to flee! What the heck, they might just as well kill me.

Ok… off to studies I go!

You take care,

Regards,

Proshat

A Letter To A Friend

Dear Sir,

I just thought to send you a mail. It seems that recently we're moving so fast & we're stuck in a whirlwind of emotion that takes us higher & higher & make us act out of our minds.

Where are we going really? Are we going to end up cold & scared when it's all over? When would this bewilderment be over in the first place? Is there an end to it or are we just gonna be frantic weirdo friends for the rest of our lives, doing God-Knows all kinds of stuff?

Have you ever wondered that maybe, maybe we are heading somewhere? That maybe this specific road will lead us to commitment which we both are very frightened of? Would that be as bad as we think?

You ask me if I love you. What does 'love' really mean? What is "LOVE"? Is it the physical need to be as close to you as possible? Is it the urge to breathe your breath & touch your skin or you are thinking of a shudder whenever you reach out for me? Then, no, I don't love you…. I do am in desperate need of your touch but it's not your body I dream of. It's the mystery behind you… the glint of wisdom in your eyes. I like your style. & whenever we talk, whenever we share a passion, whenever I listen to your hyper voice telling me a tale of your own, I feel I can walk on moon. I feel nothing can conquer me, can bring me down when I'm with you. You make the world step away whenever you move one tiny step close. That's not love either. Is it? That's only the ultimate friendship, the bound between us. I can't say "I Love You" in any specific way… in no way in particular. It could be anyone who would happen to have your logical talent & your brilliant mind & passionate enthusiasm, which I declare, is a bit, more than a bit unique. You are one of a kind. Everybody's one of a kind. Everybody's someone. Uhum… you are 'the' someone, still….

You have asked me to accompany you on a trip, where without a gleam of doubt the physical closeness will be exposed to other companions… either that, or you have to be so cold, so cruel that it will break my heart & yours. A trip to nowhere… with you… that sounds frightening. It sounds like a dream suddenly realized. & Dreams should only come true step by step…. No dream is allowed to come to reality without hard work, without pain or it would not be treasured as it should be. You thought me that….

You, sir, have thought me that I should be grateful for the little heartache I have gone true… for a few aching experiences & painful memories… coz no one would reach the juice of perfection without any twinge. The hard you squeeze, the more you are ready to sip the juice. You have thought me to appreciate the effort of others & to respect their right to love me or leave me. It's because of you that now I consider the consequence of every word I say to people. You are the reason for my changes. But are we ready to change into something new? Are we ready to set off to a journey that might change all our lives especially mine? Would it be too much to ask to clarify my hesitations… you are my teacher, my dreamer, my student & my dream all the same. YOU are the only one who have a say in this.

With Love

Proshat

My Trip To West Of Iran

Some Pictures From my Trip...


Share The Thrill... Share the Laughter...


You Would like to visit it

The Holidays & I

So I spent my whole holidays doing nothing but watching load crabs of movies & studying a bit of economy.

Fantastic!

It's amazing though, how my view on world keeps changing & growing in a way more mature than before. I keep seeing things in a new light. I see everything in a web of compiled & compact relations… & I try to figure how to handle everything at once.

I have learned a few things these days which would be nice to share:

* Life is spending the day with a beloved & never thinking of losing them.

* If you don't try to have fun, nobody will actually give you the right to have fun!

* Ask for everything you need, voice your concerns, show your feelings good or bad, if you don't express yourself, no one will notice you.

* If you can't love someone, then let them have your respect. Respect their feelings but do not feel guilty for not being able to love them back. You have the first-hand right to your heart. & an expression of love should be real & true not fake & false.

* If someone can not love you the way you want them to, be grateful that at least they can love you in their own way. & If they don't love you at all, well, Their loss.

So I keep Posting by email!

Horray! This is incredible. It's just that I cant post pictures with this!

It had been very fun day at work…. We had been visiting friends & collogues most of the day since it's the first almost real workday after the holidays. A lot of friends are still not back & over there is a very informal atmosphere here. My Internet account over here is still blocked, so I would not be able to check any blogs! I only get my email account & this is what I do with it!!!!!

Trying New Email Post

Hey...
What's Up?

- You, honey, can’t stop my departure. I am to leave & there’s no stopping me… I need to be Free….
- Aren’t you free here?
- Freedom, honey, is not the right to choose it id the concept of non-choosing that defines freedom… & here, being close to you, I would never be free… I’m always expected to make choices. You, my lord, are my cage. You prison me in this glass & gold prison of your love.
With you, I have the world at my feet, & you have me. Now, it’s time to trade off… you have the world & I have ME!

Conversations Cut from a story

- But you’re in love with me!
- That would not normally mean I would let you rule my life….

It's New Year Here!

It's Persian New Year.


I'm off on a holiday... Will be back!

More Coffeeshop photos

Yeah.. that's my hand! But I'm more of a Coke Drinker!

Nope... This is Chips & Cheese ... One of My favs in Kaze!

I Spilt the whole hot chocklet thanks to Mr. Politics!

I never forget to take out my little notebook... useful to grab ideas & turn them into words.

What We Do in a Coffeshop?

We eat!

Cut From a Story

(Tehran - Nezami Ganjavi)

Outside These fences, Where stupid facts like fame & status are of importance, Your avoidance is logical... yet Juliet, within these walls, Love is the only reality that matters. Here, your heart will defy your mind & your body will take control. Here, Juliet, is the place you give in... because there is no choice of running away!

From Azadeh's blog: Many Women's Rights Activists were Arrested in Tehran!

Read Azadeh's Blog on the news:

Iran-Emrooz,Tehran, Iran, Sunday, March 04, 2007
http://www.iran-emrooz.net/index.php?/news1/12208/
50 of
the women's rights movement activists were arrested in front of the
Revolutionary Court in Tehran.
The security police forces attacked a
peaceful gathering of women's rights activists that had taken place at 8:30 am
in front of the Revolutionary Court in Tehran in objection to the recent
governmental oppressions and the summoning of some of these activists. The
police forces who used violence to scatter the crowd, arrested at least 21 of
the protesters.
According to the report published by Advar News, the list of
the arrested is as follows:
Asieh Amini, Jila Bani Yaghoub, Mahboubeb
Abbasgholizadeh, Mahboubeh Hosseinzadeh, Sara Loghmani, Zara Amjadian, Mariam
Hossein Khah, Jelveh Javaheri, Niloofar Golkar, Parastoo Dokoohaki, Zeinab
Peyghambarzadeh, Maryam Mirza, Saghar Laghayee, Khadijeh Moghaddam, Saghie
Laghayee, Nahid Keshavarz, Mahnaz Mohammadi, Nasrin Afzali, Tal'at Taghinia,
Fakhri Shadfar, Maryam Shadfar, Elnaz Ansari, Fatemeh Govarayee, Azadeh
Forghani, Sommayeh Farid, Minoo Mortezayee, Sara Imanian.
Nooshin Amhadi
Khorasani, Parvin Ardalan, Shahla Entesari and Susan Tahmasebi—five prominent
members of the women's rights movement—who had to attend their court hearing
left the court session in support of their fellow activists. They, too, got
arrested upon their departure from the court.
The police officers hit Nahid
Jafari's head to the police van and as a result of such violent actions, her
teeth broke and the officers are currently refusing to take her to the emergency
room.

Love

I Can Let People Love me...

But I Wont love them back...

The Gate of the castle is closed

& You are not allowed to enter.

No Signs to Go:

I miss read the signs once again;
A heart is broken
& I don’t know where I stand
With your perfume on me
& I have doubts…
& there’s no place I would like to go
& there is no light clearing the path…
I can’t decide on which road to take.
It’s your heart on the line.
& I try to use my mind.
Don’t get me wrong… I have had my heart broken
& by mistake I had crashed someone else’s hearts…
You are too dear that I would let this happen to you.

Modern Women In Iran

Do I consider myself modern?

I guess so... though not in a VERY modern way... I tend to be somewhat classic & traditional when it comes to curtain things... yet I'm modern in more ways than other.

I also like to think that I, the little girl of games, am an intellectual.... I like to talk about Economy, Politics & all the 'deep' stuff around me....

My friends are from the same league also... We have our conversations & our moments... They are not shallow... like some modern Iranian Women who only concern themselves by the latest fashions & trends!!!!

Why am I writing all this? Well, Previous night was our girls night out.... We went to a fancy restaurant & let ourselves be pampered by the service & we talked the whole night... & only in our circle of three we can talk about almost anything... we can start from Salad Dressing & end in World Peace. We discuss almost everything & we share so many things...

It was then it hit me... we were 'REAL' women having a life in Iran. We were 'real'. & we were not dolls or idols... but only a human being safe in knowing each other & safe in our clique...

& we were different at the same time... we were not the little girls anymore... we were 'Women', Grown up & mature on the verge of making big decisions.

& We were real.

Cheers to my clique... Cheers to my ladies.... Here we are the conquerors of the World

A Ticket To The Moon

& I've got a dream to reach...
All I need is... A ticket to the moon

No One Dares To Distrub The Sound of a Silence

http://www.4shared.com/dir/2064632/4a0e1700/Song.html

When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never shared
No one dared Disturb the sound of silence

& That's how it feels here today...
People hanging on to a little hope left...
People who shout in silence.

Are We Going to End Up in a War?

I hear the news of American Plan to attack Iran. & I wonder what will happen to my daily life?
What will happen to my friends, boys & girls who have a whole lot of years of dreams before them? What will happen to laughters & tears? To loves & hatereds? To Joy & Pain?
What will happen to my beloved sister? To my dad & mom? To all the fun days & rough nigts?
What will happen to my baby niece? Will she live enough to see the days of happiness or would her life be filled with disasters & lost memories like mine?
War is unjust & cruel & no matter what the reason, no one is allowed to attack some other beings.
Here... we're talking about Lives being on the line. & if it were for mine, I would never & ever utter a word... for I have lived my life t the fullest, the richest that I could dream... I had love & happiness & I have people to care for who care for me.... Yet, it's not my life walking on the edge... It's my friends' & family's lives.... It's my memories & their future... It's Human beings in danger!
Just arund a corner, Darkness is waiting for us, hovering above, whispering nasty words & lauhing a hard evil laugh... He Awaits in the shadows & keeps his sword ready & sharp... & when the time comes... He will take us... to our doom.
I wont fight... I know. & I wont ever see the pain. I wont fight... but where's my choice but to suffer from someone else's stupidity?

I’m two men:

I’m two ends of a spectrum;
The extreme passion,
The extreme hatred
One side wants to conquer the world,
The other wants to isolate in solitude
One hugs every sad & needy,
The other push loving ones aside

I’m two ends of a spectrum;
The extreme heat,
The extreme coldness
One side fights for freedom
The other begs to be captured.
One is the rebel;
The other the subject

I’m two ends of a spectrum;
Deepest deep &
Highest high
One side is silent meditation;
The other’s screaming loud.

& as my friend once said:
“I’m two men:
One is awake in the darkness,
The other is asleep in the sun.”

PS: Yes, I Wrote it. Actually one of my sister's friends had written the last part on a paper & the rest just came to me.

The Gift I Was Given

When I was born...
I was blessed with a gift... I was given the power to cheer others... to enchant them & help get through their lives.
& I'm dedicated to that mission...
To charm people with happiness, to fill their hearts & to give them all I can....
I am to live the mission to the fullest.

My Michigan Friends... Here Comes the Jail for Adultry

Fasinating...
Just read this...
Will make commitment even harder... but I guess that would be cool.

Missing US teens discovered alive

Have you read this:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/6254223.stm

!!!!!!!!!

It's just wierd that the first boy is still living with kidnapper! Strange!

Another Hope Down the Drain For Us 'Fatties'

Check out the article on BBC.
Might be interesting to read.

Capital Punishment's No Use!

So Saddam got hanged...
So what?
Read his last moments... & see how hateful he was toward Iranians & Americans all the same to the last moment.
What's the use of execution? He had to stay alive & face the insults....
Capital punishment is not the answer. We don't give life & we don't get it back.... I have lost dear ones to his wickedness, I have seen houses been destroyed, kids being killed, girls being raped.... I have seen people cursing him, wishing him misery & death... but in the end, Executing him was not the solution. He did not deserve the luxury of death.
& guess what? I hear a lot of people say that death was the least he could face....
Anyhow, Capital punishment is an absurd way of revenge.

Take the Lead

I watched "Take the Lead" during the holidays & i must admitt, despite the reviews I enjoyed watching the movie. Got me inspired really....

Maybe I shall go back to ballroom dancing!

Blog Tag Game for Yalda

This game has been converted to a Persian form & I had been invited by my friend Hanna to participate in the Game.
So I wrote my 5ive BIG NOT-KNOWINGS in Persian & then I decided to put them here to & invite some other friends to join the game.

* I make a story before I sleep every night, if not, I would not be able to sleep.
* Once a troop of "Islamic" police seized me & 20 of my other friends in a Nearby city Damavand for having a "party in which boys & girls were together under a roof" (I'm not joking that was the statement in our court note. They held us prisoner for a night & even of now, I shiver when I remember the humiliation of that night.
* My relationship with the only boyfriend I had was a complete disaster... diverse intentions & different interests... total catastrophe!
* I fell in love with a cartoon Character when I was in high-school.
* Sometimes I dream I'm a sim in Sims II! I love that game!

& now for the other 5 people I have to invite to Blog-tag:
My dear Lynne
Dear Grandpa
Dear Pantra
EMBA & I
Sanaz

My Days

This is written in request of a friend:
My life is pretty normal Well... but I guess u do not know what is normal in Iran LOL.
I usually wake up at 6:30 (my alram goes off at 5:45 though) & I leave home at 7:30 or so. I have a half-an-hour ride to reach my work by a taxi. I dont take my car cos I work in a restricted area where cars are not allowed in. I start work at 8. I'm a food inspector in an Orgnizational Company. So I have to go down to the site sometimes but I'm more in the office nowadays. Work times finish at 4 here but I usually have to stay overtime till 6 pm cos I take one day off each week for my classes. The ride back home take usually an hour or so.... bad traffic & all that junk. Anyway, I usually have classes in the evening: My English conversation gatherings, painting classes, gym & some school courses. If I would not have a class I'm usually out with my numerous friends. We go out to movies, cafes, resturants, theaters, bookstores &.... I participate in some different group of friends so it takes a lot of time for me to stay connected to them all. Usually it's 9ish when I get back home. & then I have a few words with my family, I study a bit. I play Sims II & I sleep around 11.
Workday starts from Saturday till Wedensday & we have Thursdays & Fridays off. However, I have classes on Thursdays too so that leave Fridays to be spent by my family & of course study a bit!
Well that's how my life passes me by.

See Sanaz's Post On Yalda

Here is the link to her post on Yalda.
See it for yourself

Merry Christmas Everyone

I hope everyone would have a perfect holiday...
I hope you would have a lot of snow & a lot of candies.
Joy, Peace & Love.
From Iran

The Sanctions ...

Here is the news itself:

Security Council Approves Sanctions Against Iran Over Nuclear Program

& I believe there would be more to come.
Where are we heading?

Here Come Yalda

In my personal opinion, Yalda Night (Celeberating the victory of Light over darkness) is the best one-night celeberation of Persian culture.
Some say that Chahar-shanbe-soori (the bon-fire night near Norooz) in March, is the most memorable one, yet for me, Yalda has a very special place... I have such nice memories of the tales been told by fire light, the poems read, the stuff eaten (you know I LOVE snacks) & ... that hardly anything else can replace them.
This year Yalda is Thursday night (Weekend in Iran) so most families gather together & have fun. It should be another memorable night.
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Anyhow, it'll be my birthday in 2 weeks too.... My Sister says "You like Winter, cos you were born in winter". Maybe she is right... or maybe simply, winter is the nicest season ever.

How Much Does Your Blog Worth?

My blog is worth $3,387.24.
How much is your blog worth?

AIDS Day

Let's wear the RED Ribbon Today.

Somewhere in Between

I still don't have a clue if I will be staying in this job or not. People are running around doing things but I spend my days at my desk just lazing around... & still nothing.
On the other hand, I went to the doctor's yesterday (I hear you say at last!) & he said that I have to take medications for a month & go back to check my condition. I feel tired still but there is hope that I at least get some rest when finally they put me out of job.
I'm not angry, upset or afriad. Whatever that happens would be for my best. I will find a part time job & I will have more time at hand to study. No worries there.

Types of Freedom

My Systemic Approach lecturer told us a story & I like to share it with you:

There had been a class held by UN in Poland in late 70s. In the morning there was courses offered to Top Officers & during the evening, everyone would have fun together. One of my lecturer's student was a lady who had been very clever. Once she had asked Professor Khoram: "How many types of Freedom do we have?"

He asked her to enlighten him on the question: "There are 4 types of Freedom:" She had said. "English Freedom, German Freedom, Soviet Union (yes, there had still been a sovite union then) Freedom & French Freedom.

"English freedom is 'Everything is allowed exept for the things that are forbidden'.

"German freedom is 'Everything is forbidden exept for the things that are allowed'

"Soviet Freedom is 'Evrything is forbidden including all the things that are allowed'

"& finally French Freedom is 'Everything is free including all the things that are forbidden!'"

I hope you like it.

Job or No Job?

Yesterday I had classes so I did not come to the office. During this ONE day, my boss had resigned & I've been informed that there is an expelling letter waiting for me!
God bless the whole of them.
I might be out of job as of this Saturday. No payment, no security, no penalty for kicking me out of Job!
Congradualtions Proshat! You've accomplished so much!

Feminine Knowledge Worker

Orgnizational Behavior in L's Opinion:
http://emba-and-i.blogspot.com/2006/11/fminine-knowledge-worker.html

Sunnaz Tells You about Feminism in Iran

Here is the second part to her post on feminism.

Colorgenics

A friend sent it to me:
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm
Try it... It's fun.

The Reasons

Sometimes you feel like giving up...
Sometimes you feel like going to the extreme & never come back...
Sometimes You need a song to sway with:
How about listening to this one?
Total Eclipse of the Heart.

Capital Punishment For Saddam

I hate Capital Punishment.... It does not matter who is going to be excuted... It does not matter what the person has done.... It's WRONG!
We are not creators of life... we did not give it to people & we do not have the right to take it away.
Besides, Saddam die the moment he fell out of power... the moment he went into hidding & lost his 'Almighty' status. Who kill someone who is already dead.
Don't get me wrong... Saddam has brought so much misery uopn my country & his, that I have no choice but to loath him. He had taken so many lives, done so many violances that I feel like throwing up whenever I hear his name... Still, hanging him up is not the answer. He has to live his low life & be misrable & feel humilated & wish for death for the rest of his life. & we shall not grant that wish for him.
HE HAS TO LIVE! HE HAS TO PRAY FOR DEATH TO COME & END HIS MISARY, however, he should not be hangged.... He is too low to be given that gift!

Free Hugs Once Again

Follow The LINK:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4&eurl
& today give someone a free hug.
That's the nicest thing I've ever seen... the best gift I ever been given.

Discovery Channel Announces Second Ted Koppel Special, 'IRAN - THE MOST DANGEROUS NATION'

The weather is beautifull.
I have so much to do... Exams, Projects, Commitee memberships & all.
The weather is nice....
But I dont have time to enjoy it.
I wish I could just let go & be me.... I wish....
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PS: Would anyone happen to be watching Discovery Channel on Sunday, November 19 at 8 PM (ET/PT). There is A special progrmm about Iran... 'IRAN - THE MOST DANGEROUS NATION'
I just want to know how on earth did they figure that WE are dangerous? We are the Nation they're talking about & we are as ordinary as any other nation with real lives & real issues. We're not just a face on the other side of the world... we are not a word, not an image...
WE EXIST! We're here...!
You are talking about actual & very alive people who are capablale of Love & Hate.... Don't take us for some crule myths you have heard on the radio!
Here is the link to more info: http://biz.yahoo.com/prnews/061030/dcm048.html?.v=62

Someone New...?

How About Me?

Behold the Future POP Prince & Princeses

Angelis The new band is consist of 6 teenagers... Girls & Guys together.
They Seem so young & inocent with a great song to start: Covering "Angle".
Check out the website at:
http://www.angelis-music.com
& watch the amazing new video.

Sunnaz's POst On Feminism in Iran

Check her post & give her some good feedbak...
Hey Sunn I wanna see the rest of it real soon... You here buddy.... REAL SOON

Westlife Video: The Rose

Some Say Love...

"Old Memeories... Old dreams"

The Highway I Pass Everyday

By the way what do you think about this video posts?

PS: Sina I hope you dont find them too cheap!

The Stop For Breakfast

More Kashan

A Trip To Kashan

I had taken a trip to Kashan this weekend & this is one of the few Videos I've filmed with my cellphone.

Justin Timberlake On his Tour (Myspace Video)

How Cocky this is?

I might even show up!

Although I used to be a fan & I like the guy for the music he has brought to my life, I was not too thrilled about his new songs.

Loved the new 'suite' look though.... Ewww... Pink & a tie!

Thanks to Justin's Myspace.

A Post on Feminism By Lynne

• This is the Post by Lynne.
• Share your Opinion Please. & Be True to yourself.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Some
Thoughts on Feminism
One of the things I have been thinking about a lot lately because of some discussion I have read on various feminist blogs has been about make up and girly things and how those fit into feminism or how they don’t as the case may be. A lot of discussion has been around how such things are not tools of empowerment but rather survival skills in a patriarchy. Many are saying that it is perfectly reasonable for a woman to employ traditional trappings of femininity in order to gain power from men since it is still one way to do it.

Some say that since women now have other options, options that result in women actually being seen as capable, they should leave the trappings of femininity behind. Others say that one should just do what one wants to do and should wear makeup and get married or whatever they else they want to do as long as they recognize that when other women chose not to do those things, it is a valid choice. I have to admit that I am in that camp. I simply cannot bring myself to get offended when another woman shaves her legs or puts on lipstick. The discussion brought up some other thoughts though. One blogger, while talking about her love of things feminine made a comment along the lines of “no one ever accused me of being a feminist because I couldn’t find a man” (I cannot for the life of me remember which of the dozens of feminist bloggers I read who said that so I apologize for not giving credit.). That particular line got me thinking more about feminism than any other thing I read. Because you see, to me…lipstick is just lipstick and shaving one’s legs is something a person either does or doesn’t do and generally I don’t think about it too much unless I feel that I am being judged for not wearing makeup and not often shaving my legs or not having a man in my life as a romantic partner. You see, the thing of it is…I
think that I am a feminist because I cant get a man. Seriously. (we will all just forget for a moment as I often do that when I say that I cant get a man, what I really mean is that I cant get a man that I want. I suppose if getting a man were my only concern, I could choose someone I am not interested in)Ok. So here is the thing. By and large, I have been rejected by the patriarchy. I get no power from men. Men do not generally pay me compliments. Men generally do not ask me out. Sometimes men treat me badly because of how I look. Some women do too but they are usually women who get a lot of positive attention from men. Like it or not, getting a lot of attention from men gives women power in our culture. Less so than in times past but even today a woman can trade her beauty for economic security. It isn’t an accident really that most women’s economic position rises considerably with marriage. Men’s economic positions also rise with marriage but there seems to be less of an effect. There are other less obvious ways that women often find their self worth attached to the attention they get from men. I see this everywhere. From the shelves of books at the bookstore with instructions on how to get a man or how to keep a man to the comments made by single women along the lines of “Lots of men want me, I am single because I want to be” which may be true but still acknowledges that the
attention of men is a valuable thing for a woman. (And to be fair, the attention of women can be valuable for a man but it seems different to me somehow and I am sure it is a power differential I am sensing) Men, for whatever reason, are often
attracted to women who take an effort to appear feminine. Now, of course there are all kinds of women who don’t wear make up and dont shave who still find themselves shacked up with some guy. I will just say that if one happens to be very overweight and also chooses not to wear makeup, high heel shoes, feminine clothing, etc that one’s odds of finding a guy drop considerably. At any rate, at some point in my life, I stopped internalizing the bad messages our patriarchal culture was giving me that I was somehow not deserving because of my body or my choice be somewhat hairy and without lipstick on a regular basis. I stopped being offended by the phrase “women in comfortable shoes” since I generally like to wear comfortable shoes. What is wrong with comfortable shoes? Eventually, I decided that the real problem was outside me and that it was a problem with the culture at large and it was feminists and feminist writing that helped me see that. It was feminists who helped me take all of that self-loathing and put it outside me. And at some point I realized that I could starve myself and spend more time than I wanted to molding myself into a version of myself that was more approved by our culture OR I could just be the me that I have learned to love. I could learn that it is ok for a woman to choose to be herself even if it means not attracting a man. That was a very freeing moment in my life because once my sense of self worth was no longer in any way attached to attention from males, I could stop worrying about the lack of male attention I was getting and I could start paying attention other, more important, things.

And so…I have accepted that I am a single woman. But being a single woman has also made me appreciate feminism all the more. You see, married women do not feel things like the wage gap as much as single women do because their household’s incomes include a man’s income although I imagine that divorced women and especially divorced women with children feel the wage gap even more than single women do. Being single has made me appreciate the advances that have been made by feminists before me. I can have a job that is something other than being a librarian, a nurse, a teacher, or a social worker. I can own property and get a mortgage. I can vote. In short, I can do everything I need to do in order to have a fulfilling life even without a man.

More than just that though, being a single woman has given me a point of view of the outside looking in. There are a lot of amazing women in the world who have been blessed with incredible good looks, who get lots of positive attention from our patriarchal culture who have managed to still see all of the things I see. There are men who have managed to become feminists too. Those men and women are amazing. I don’t think I would have been one of those women though. I suspect that if I were given lots of power by the patriarchy, I would probably have used it for evil instead of for good. I think I needed to be challenged strongly in order to form my views in a way that was different than the patriarchal culture I was brought up in. I needed to be a woman in order to understand male privilege. I needed to be fat in order to understand how unfairly fat people and fat women in particular are treated in our culture. I say this because even with the challenges I have been given, I still accept at least some of the patriarchal notions of our culture. But I am working on it.

I know that is a thought somewhat far away from “is it ok for feminists to wear lipstick” but there you go. Sometimes I start in one place and end up someplace completely different.

posted by S. Lynne Fremont at 12:46 PM

Rain... Rain... & More Rain!

Did anyone mentioned anything about using cooling system somewhere in Dear Lynne's Comments? Not me certainly! *Tries to hide somewhere*
It had been raining all day yesterday... such a nice way to speand a holiday... sitting by the window nursing a cup of tea & listening to the rain fall... & shivering!!!!

Listen to the pouring rain,

Listen to it pour,

& with every drop of rain

You know I love you more

Let it rain all night long

Let my love for you grow strong

As long as we're together

Who cares about the weather?

Listen to the falling rain,

Listen to it fall.

& With every drop of rain

I can hear you call.

Call my name right out loud,

I can hear above the clouds,

& I'm hear among the poddles,

You & I together huddle,

Listen to the falling rain,

Listen to it rain.

Jose Feliciano

Anousheh Ansari.

This post is the answer to my dear Lynn:
I think it's pretty amazing that an Iranian by borne have had the facility to go space. What's more she is woman....
But I shall admit that I would be as excited as I am right now, if some other woman would have done that. The mere fact that a lady is as successful as this to be able to fulfill her dream is amazing. It does not matter what nationality she is, or where she is from.
I'm very happy that she could see her dream come true. & I read her blog all the time. She once said 'how much you pay to fulfill your dreams?' & this sentence alone got me so inspired that now I know that I have to pay a lot for my dreams.
I did not mention her name here because I think what she has done is beyond nationality... She's a global model for women everywhere.

SURPRISE

& that's how it's done....:
I watched with my own eyes that Mr. Poltics who was supposed to be in Canada studying, walked up the stairs of a resturant in Tehran & meet my questions with "Yeah, right I'm my brother!"
I just froze, could not believe my eyes & I had to pinch his cheeks to make sure that he was real! It was really funny... I could explode with joy.
When the initial shock washed off, it was time for questions: "What the hell are you doing here?" "Why did you come back?"

"I have only three words," he said "Loneliness, My friends & family"

& That's how it's done!